I Don t Look Like What I Been Through!
In a world so cold
So cold and lonely
No one to talk
No one to call my homie
Mom ain't around
Drugs took her along time ago
I ain't seen her in three days
since she walked out the front door
Father to drunk
to know that I exist
alcoholic step dad
says "I'm to pretty to resist"
I pray every night
Lord, please take me away
I lay in my bed at night
and pray pray pray
My sister is with her husband
She don't care about me
while he's out cheating on her
blinded by love, that's something she just cant see
I'm scared for my lil brother
He's going to school and rapping his beats
I don't want to lose my brother
I REFUSE TO LET HIM BE ANOTHER STATISTIC ON THE STREETS
It's cold in this world
All these thoughts going through my head
It's bad when your family
make you wish you were dead
They tell you you ain't cute
you ain't never gonna make it
wish I was pretty like my sister
now I have to fake it
Guys wanna talk to me
just to get in my pants
yep, i fall for it
I disappointed in myself why they are doing dance
A dance of celebration
they got what they want
while I'm stuck wondering
could I be pregnant, the thoughts they just taunt
I cant focus no more
the thoughts keep going through my head
I tried with a belt, I tried with aspirins
man I wish I was dead
can you feel my pain
there's somethings in my past I just wont miss
Now let me ask you one question
Do you want to live like this?
That's not what God has for me
He has something greater
My destiny, my future
I told the devil see you later
God is my rock
my strength and my shield
If God be for me who can be against me
NOW its my time to yield
Yield to my calling
what God wants me to be
I have to look to the hills
God, thank you because now I can see
I hope this has helped you
give your problems to God
he is faithful and he will do it
He is my all in all!!!!!!!